I will still use this one as a focus on my writing ventures, but the new one’s focus is our eternal hope. If you need some encouragement, please browse through my latest entries. Let me know which one you find most helpful. :)
They’re so wrapped up in their worlds,
they’re, like, living in three and squeezing me
out of them all, with their arms wrapped around each other,
their fingers scratching the curb—-lingering too long, faces
moving close, ripping the tape off their wounded hearts,
copiously bleeding from running too fast,
becoming each other’s problem and each other’s inevitable solution,
so they just keep ignoring me,
and no one likes being ignored, forgotten,
and no one likes secrets either or being left out of them.
They are so wrapped up inside each other
every morning is dreadful,
and they think I judge, but I’m just looking at the
remains of two friendships and it’s painful.
They are so wrapped up in the moment,
they think it’s forever,
like we feared when we were children,
so anxious to grow up,
and then we did. Did they?
Because they dream of forever, they don’t miss me anyway…
And I’ve accepted it. I’m just noting the decay,
great memories scorched.
It was all a lie.
So now I only have room for the truth.
To the ones who’ve already left me. Good bye.
While I writing the first draft, I must listen to music so that I feel loose enough to write without thinking too seriously about it. I am easily distracted by bad writing. So rather than getting it all out, I write a paragraph and then start editing. Music helps prevent to that.
And then….
When I get stuck, I get up and dance. I am not kidding at at all. Each time I do this, ideas come to me. By the time the song is over, I have more to write.
This is how I ended up staying up all night. I didn’t want to go to bed until I had written all that I could. That way I will have something to work with the next time I sit down with this story. I hope I like it when I wake up tomorrow.
What am I giving my all to? What am I working hard at?
It’s not enough to be spiritual. You can feed yourself all day and have great conversation all week. But what are you doing with your life, with your time? Are you a good steward?
I’m talking to myself. But it’s definitely something to think about if you are like me and it seems heaven can’t come soon enough. Must live now!
Zadie Smith, White Teeth
I love how writers are able to capture things I’ve experienced myself.
What is an experience? Something that breaks a polite routine and for a brief period allows us to witness things with the heightened sensitivity afforded to us by novelty, danger, or beauty - and it’s on the basis of shared experiences that intimacy is given an opportunity to grow. Friendships…
—Zanie Smith, White Teeth
Compare this to the last quote I posted yesterday, and see what I’m talking about. I have often felt like Archie here. If I could just say the right thing, do the right thing, even if it’s not necessarily righteous or of Christ and get people’s love, approval, acceptance, and get my worth from that…life would be better. But it never works. Like my quote from Cosby that I tweeted yesterday about the key to failure being our attempts to please everybody, I always end up failing right there, on center stage, for everyone to see. It’s so much better to live for God and find my satisfaction, worth, love, life, and purpose in Him. Always. Everything else backfires and ends in our own demise.
Mother Teresa
So I saw this on someone’s facebook wall, and realized this is my most favorite quote ever. Often my words and actions are moved by what I assume other people will think of me. Nine times out of ten, this leads me to do what I will later regret or repent of. And it’s so ridiculous because it’s not like God says that He is going to hold us accountable for our sins, and it’s not like He’s going to look at my sin and say, “Oh, you thought they were going to think you were weird? Okay, don’t worry about it. You did the right thing.”
No… it truly is between me and Him. Man’s approval cannot govern my life. God’s approval… God’s glory… God’s will…
Couldn’t resist posting this! The opening to the “Be Encouraged, Be Convinced” album coming this fall…
